I'm not good with waiting. I prefer certainty to uncertainty. I e-mailed my first screenplay query to an agency exactly three weeks ago today, and they state a response time of two to three weeks on their website. When I first e-mailed it, I came up with several fanciful scenarios in my mind: they responded in one day because they were so impressed by my letter, they rejected it right away and I could query the next agent, they took a week because they were inundated with queries, and on and on it went.
As two weeks stretched into three, I told myself it was a good sign, as previous article queries I've submitted have been rejected within a few days. I reassured myself that it is likely faster for agents to say no to material than to express interest. Yesterday I went into a slight emotional funk over it, panicking that maybe my query was lost in cyberspace, so I decided to be proactive and re-submit my original e-mail today with a short note attached, and I will affix a "read receipt" so I know for sure it has been received.
These are uncharted waters for me. I'm not sure exactly what to do, but I do know that waiting is not my strong suit. I felt better instantly when I drafted the e-mail that I will forward later today. Action motivates me into a better mood because I feel energized instead of demoralized. It may not make a difference to the outcome, but changing my emotions creates a more positive experience for me, and that seems to help the situation.
I know that I am more patient now than I have ever been, but I still have a long road ahead of me in this area. If I embrace the experience and look for ways I can grow and change, I will learn something through this process of waiting. It is good to be reminded that I am not always in control, and that is okay. I must submit my will to God and fate and trust that I will be safe and that events will unfold as they are meant to. It's not an easy lesson but a very important one, if I can remain open to learning what it has to teach me.
My newest article is up on the Gear4Guys site. It's called Men & Healthcare. If you are in need of a Friday laugh, head over there and have a quick read about how radically different men and women are when it comes to child care and other such responsibilities.