Winding Down

I have 4 weeks of work left, starting today, and 2 of my monthly stamping groups to prep for and run, and then both are finished in June. I've been working 12 hours a week for the last 10 months, and have run monthly stamping groups for the last 7 years, so I'm closing them both out with a mixture of excitement and nostalgia.

I want to finish well, not wishing away the time but instead enjoying the best parts of both of them. This year has been about self-discovery and awakening from the sleepy/busy pace of having children under the age of 3. I've grown in ways I didn't know I was capable of this year, taking steps as they opened up in front of me and realizing that my dreams were closer than I thought they were.

It's been a fantastic process. As the school year draws to a close for Ava, it seems like exactly the right time to finish my part-time job and to wind down my home business. They have both been exactly what I needed at the time I had them, but now it really is time to move to the next chapter. The key for me is simply living in this moment today, and not impatiently wishing I was done already.

I've lived a lot of my life that way. Bored of the current stage and eager for the next thing. I realize that I've missed a lot of joy by always straining my neck ahead for the next adventure, instead of fully embracing the situation I'm in. I am determined to enjoy these last weeks of my stamping business and my office job. I need to do the best I can do and learn what I can before I move on to the career I've always dreamed of having.

There is so much value in doing something well. Whatever I put my hand to, I want to succeed at, and if I fail, I want to go down using all of my abilities. Just because I'm finishing up doesn't mean I'm giving up; I've made a choice to finish 2 work experiences and focus wholeheartedly on writing, but I want to discipline myself to finish well before closing these chapters.